The older I get, the more I wish I could write a letter to my younger self.
I was always a very shy child. I never introduced myself or spoke up voluntarily.
In high school I was always that ‘loser’ kid. Sure, I had friends. But I was never in the sought after popular crowd. I was okay with that. I had no desire to party and spend my weekends drinking. That stage in my life wouldn’t rear it’s ugly (but quite fun) head until my early 20’s sadly enough.
I’ve always wondered what my life would be like if I had been the outgoing and confident child and teenager that I always wished I could be. Would I be where I am now? Would I have the things and people in my life that I currently do? Who knows.
There are some things that I wish I could change about my past. But at the same time, those things that I went through, shaped me to the person I am today.
So I’ve decided to write a letter to my younger self. Here is it:
Dear Younger Rhiannon,
Stop being afraid of speaking up. Don’t let the kids in school make you feel bad about the person you are. I promise, once you are out of the horrid high school walls, none of those things will matter. There’s no popularity in the real world. You don’t have to be afraid of casual days, and being judged by your clothing choices. Wear what you want, what’s comfortable and wear what you feel confident in.
Don’t let that one person who made that one tiny comment, turn your world into the hell that it was for those five or so years. It isn’t worth it. Lose the weight the healthy way. Don’t starve and almost kill yourself for the mental craving of ‘perfection’. Perfection doesn’t exist. You’ll learn that one day, I promise.
Make the most out of every day. Stop being so shy and afraid of taking a chance. You’ll learn that one day too. You’ll learn that life is too short to let insignificant people dictate the way you feel about yourself and the things you enjoy.
Let people in, but be cautious. Don’t open up to people who you have a gut feeling don’t deserve it. Your gut feeling is right. Listen to it.
Don’t let your stress and anxiety rule your life. Don’t stress about work or things in life we all unfortunately have to do. It’s just a job. Work towards something that will make your life better. Work towards something that will make you happy, and will give you something to look forward to each day.
You’ll end up dreaming of travelling the world. Start that travel blog sooner. Don’t umm and ahh about it for months. Just do it. Work your ass off to make it big. Work your ass off to be able to travel the world, and get those years back that you wasted.
Spoiler alert: you will eventually visit New York City. Be patient. It will happen.
You’ll end up happy, with a wonderful man in your life. That much I promise!
Keep your head up and push through all the crap ahead. It’s worth it. You’ll see.
It’s taken me 24 (almost 25 – happy birthday to me next month!) years to realise that life is too short to worry about stupid shit. Excuse the language.
I’m aware that this isn’t a post with directly helpful information. So I’m sorry if you came here hoping for a insightful blog post on a topic such as “how to make one million dollars for free, plus a lifetime supply of cookies and cream ice cream” but not today! (can someone make this happen? Please. That’d be sweet).
Pointless Fact: Cookies & Cream ice cream is my favourite flavour.
I wanted to write this, because I know there are a lot of people out there in the same boat. Kids in high school who are struggling with bullying or discovering who they are and what they want. Trying to fit in, but also trying to stay true to who they are.
I hope this blog post helped, whether you’re a teenager trying to find their place in the world, or an adult trying to re-establish their life and priorities.
I was a shy, quiet, weird, loser kid. Now look at me. I’m an extremely happy person, who is grateful to have the opportunity to travel with my amazing boyfriend, and make memories all over the world!
If you’re struggling to figure out what you want, I recommend writing a letter to YOUR younger self!